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10 December 2009 @ 10:18 pm
... and quacks like a meme ...  
So. I don't do memes. It's in my contract.

But ... I like to do fanfic meta, whether reading it or providing it. And thanks to sholio, I've become aware of a fanfic meta ... thing ... that's making the rounds:
Pick a paragraph (or any passage 500-1000 words) from any fanfic I've written, and comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what's going on in the character's heads, why I chose certain words, what this moment means in the context of the rest of the fic, lots of awful puns, and anything else that you'd expect to find on a DVD commentary track.

I can't promise anything quite that exciting, and I've only written four stories, but I'm willing to play. Over in sholio's journal, folk are posting snippets along with their particular reasons for selecting that passage or questions they have about it, which seems like a very useful way to spark thought processes. So if you have any such questions or interest, please feel free to pose such questions here.

I consider this journal to be my primary fiction location, but my filtered Dreamwidth account is the easiest way to see all my stories at a glance.
Current Mood: curiouscurious
michelel72: SGA-Rodney-Pensivemichelel72 on December 13th, 2009 07:33 pm (UTC)
I'm going to discuss both of those scenes by starting in the same place.

In my head, at the start of the story, Rodney's in a pretty bad place emotionally. Canonically, he's interested in some kind of relationship, but we see no evidence that he's having casual sex; from what we see, he doesn't just want a connection, he wants a long-term, committed relationship. Yet except for a few flirtations — several of which were spiked by Sheppard, such as Norina — we've only seen him with Katie and Jennifer, over five years. Here, he and Jennifer have fallen apart for normal, mundane reasons; the point-to reason is a disagreement about having kids, his probably-sometime to her maybe-not-ever, but I figure there would have been a lot more to it that they can't necessarily articulate. The common theme, between the spoken and the unspoken, is that they're in different places in their lives; age-gap relationships can work, but they're hard, and (here, at least) neither of them is the right kind of mature to make that work.

So he's single again, unhappily, and reminded that he's past 40. He's self-aware enough to notice that neither of his long-term relationships was really "caused" by his going out and winning someone. From Katie, Jennifer, and Sam, he knows he doesn't have the best approach to winning someone new over, but he doesn't know how to fix that. He has to contend with that while knowing that he's always going to be next to John, who he honestly seems to believe to be a Kirk and who has historically blocked him. On top of all that, his career isn't what he had always dreamed: He gets to work on the coolest projects ever ... but he can't publish, he's not only not acclaimed but actively mocked Earthside (which has been reinforced by an unexplained science conference in Adelaide**, between the canonical Kramer one and the one here), and he's routinely expected to deliver the impossible but rarely, if ever, recognized for succeeding so far as we ever see onscreen. He's unhappy, bitter, but carrying on. (To be continued ...)

(** Left this out: Notice that Rodney says Sam volunteered him to go to Oxford. He doesn't know, but that wasn't random; Richard Woolsey had quietly asked Sam for advice about handling Rodney. Rodney and Jennifer were getting along acceptably, if awkwardly, and Rodney was doing his job, but Richard could see Rodney was quite unhappy and, as a manager, wanted to head off further problems before they escalated to the point that Rodney either exploded or quit. Sam suggested having Rodney take the Oxford conference for them, thinking maybe getting Rodney away from Atlantis for a short while would help; Richard wasn't convinced, because whatever happened at Adelaide certainly didn't help Rodney's mood, at all ... but lacking any better ideas, he went with it.)

Edited at 2009-12-13 07:53 pm (UTC)